I always dreamed of being the supportive wife and loving mother. I became both but ended up being just the loving mother but lost.
I did not plan for single parenthood, nor did I think I would be the unobtainable female.
Too vocal, but not outgoing enough...
Too headstrong, but not gullible enough...
Too accommodating, but not soft enough...
Too pretty, but doesn't glam up enough...
I was told I don't demand enough...
I don't ask for what I want...
Yet, I except too much...
How was it that I ended up with three miniature versions of me, yet I struggled to display what receiving love should look like.
But I did! Somehow in my stance for finding the love I deserved and learning to love me out loud, be me unapologetically, I taught them what LOVE really was.
It wasn't compliments that coats the EGO,
Or being gloated upon sexually...
It was being seen and appreciated for simply being you,
Given space to be yourself flaws and all,
And...
Being allowed to be heard...
I never knew how much a person's intentions could change how life is experienced until someone's attention shifted my life.
Needless to say,
I became intentional in being unapologetically me, my parenting, pursuing my career & dreams, and taking time out to reflect & plan my next moves.
I began showing up as who I wanted to be and not who I am today.
I hope you start showing up as who you want to be too,
~LoveDeprived89
P.S.
Here's to the men who are learning this too. Shoutout to Dr. Romatichison, Happy Birthday and thank you for confirming the uniqueness of this post! (Crazy cause I was not going to post it but Ase` King!)
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